In the House of the Lord

The closer I get to the Bexxar treatments, the harder it is to refuse to think about them. I have great concerns about their interaction with my allergies to seafood and IV dye. Even though the doctors have done much research and talked with many specialists, the answers revolved around how it is for most people. I happen to have a bit of experience with learning that my body doesn't seem to function like most people's!

Last night I spent much time in prayer, and drew great comfort from remembering many many times when the Lord saw me through difficult times. Verses came to mind that helped me remember that I stand on the solid ground of God's love for me.

I was not at all surprised that so much of the service at church today continued God's confirmation that things will be fine, that come what may, God is with me and loves me and will be the one ultimately in charge. Our prelude was a piano meditation on 'Great is Thy Faithfulness' - wonderful words recalled to mind.

The whole service had bits and pieces of encouragement built in and I felt such an uplifting of spirit. It was World Communion Sunday, and as I began to reflect on joining in with millions of Christians around the world - and throughout time - I couldn't help but know that even should things go sour with the radiation treatment and I find myself standing before my Maker, what better way to spend time just beforehand praising and serving God in one of his houses.

As well, many of my choir members came up to me after the service to let me know that they would be praying for me and thinking of me during the upcoming treatments. I also know my Mom's prayer group is praying for me as well as any number of friends who constantly let me know via Facebook and email and comments from my blog that I am bathed in prayer and strength from them.

If I had to make a choice of when and where I should leave this world, it would be right after singing with a huge choir to the glory of God. What a great way to go! Of course, I am not planning to do that anytime soon, Lord willing. But today was a wonderful way to prepare for the upcoming demands that I will soon face.

Thank God for the body of Christ!