That Can't Be Good

Call next Friday they told me after the bone biopsy. Hopefully the results of your bone biopsy will be back after a week. Today is Friday. Doesn't seem as if it has been a whole week. I am still struggling to feel well. Combination of the toothache, biopsy, antibiotics and pain meds. And maybe the gloomy skies and steady rain all day.

Well, I put it off as long as I could. Voice lessons and Reference Desk hours in the morning, lunch with Kiel, statistics to finish before Monday's staff meeting - I could dream up a thousand excuses. But my curiosity finally got the better of me. Even though I don't want to know, I need to know.



I call the number for lab and test results (the system at Wilmot is sometimes hard to figure out). "Wilmot Cancer Center. This is Cheryl." I explain my situation. She takes my information and looks me up. "Phone number?" I give her my cell, quickly changing it from vibrate to LOUD so I don't miss their call. I have already missed one call from them yesterday because I didn't hear the phone go off.



"I'll give your number to the nurses." Hum. Seems like if it had been good - clean - nothing to worry about, she would have told me on the spot. "DON'T JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS!" I tell myself sternly. It's probably just protocol. Receptionists don't have the authority. . .



I try to finish statistics. I am just getting into it when my cell rings. It's the clinic. I wait for the second ring before answering. Goodness, I am being silly. I am sure whatever it is, God will be with me. "Hi, Esther. This is JoAnn, one of Dr. Young's nurses. Dr. Young is not in today, and I am not clear whether she will call you with the results or if you need to come in and speak with her. I'm going to confirm that on Monday. We'll call you then with either an appointment or to tell you when she will call you. OK?"



NO! Its not OK. Can't you give me a hint? Some idea of what's going on? You can't seriously leave me dangling all weekend! But she does not give me a chance to say anything. She quickly hangs up. Am I being paranoid? Does it seem as if there is something serious going on here and no one wants to have to say it to me?



Oh, shut up! Regardless, there is no sense stewing and fussing. I will find out something hopefully on Monday and not before. I still feel fine. I am still in good shape. Nothing has changed except my hope being unanswered, and that's not a big deal. Just focus on work and maintain your calm trust.



Deep breath. I am fine. Still, there is that nagging little voice in the back of my head . . . RESET - they told you they would call you on Monday and let you know how to access the results!