Darn Cough

I have been coughing since February. I know it is chemo cough, but I am so tired of hacking and choking and gagging. It wears me out, saps my energy, and makes me self-conscious in public. I am sure people think I am tremendously rude. I am so fed up that as a last ditch effort, I make a doctor's appointment. I plan to beg for something, anything that will alleviate this horrible hacking.

The doctor does all the same things as usual. Its not in my sinus, not in my chest, no redness in my throat. It is, really and still, chemo cough. She sees my distress. I am bummed. Together we scour a list of possible medications on the computer screen. She gives me several choices of things I can try, and encourages me to gargle with warm salt water. I suspect she does not believe these medications will help much, but at least I can try stuff.

Please, Lord. Make it go away.