Once again, my roller coaster is plunging down, past where I have always stopped before, not careening wild or out of control, just descending. I wonder briefly if I will reach a point where I will need help to breathe. I already know that walking takes almost more than I can muster strengthwise.
With every other round, when I reached bottom, I knew I was leveling off and that the ascent to feeling better would start soon. If things were difficult, there was always a medical option to help regain ground and build strength. So will there be with this round, I have every confidence.
The new piece is that there are no more rounds! I can barely wrap my brain around it. No more being knocked down in battle, no more writhing through channeling all my energy into helping the chemo kill the cancer, no more patience while my body eliminates the carnage. Yes, yes, yes! Done!
This time when I put my feet down, they will not get knocked out from under me - at least not by a chemo induced war. I do still have phase 2, the radiation therapy. At least that is a shorter exposure time and I do have a few weeks to reset before October 7 & 14.
Meanwhile, I rest and let the roller coaster glide, confident that the descent will end and tomorrow will be better!
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