It's not a call you want to get. Mom is not well. She started throwing up, and after a day or so, they took her to the ER, figuring that it might not be a flu. They discovered that her colon has stopped working. They did everything they could to jump start it, but no luck. In a younger person, they would remove the colon and give her an ostomy, but Mom is too old and weak to survive such a surgery. They try enemas, medicine, manipulation and IV pushing. Nothing. There is nothing more they can do for her, so they send her home.
We are officially on death watch now. Mom can't take any food because there is nowhere for it to go except back up. She drinks fluids, but barely tolerates those. This is agonizing. I FaceTime every day, and Mom always says she is not doing so good. I pray. She wants to go home to the Lord and be with Dad. All the kids are notified. It is time to let her go. We are sad but know it is right.
I feel as if part of me is dying with her. She has been a mainstay in my life and I have already missed her tremendously. I felt like I just reconnect with the FareTime option, and now time is running out. I remember when her mom, my gram, passed. It was such a deep and profound loss. I have a hard time imagining life without Mom there. I spend hours praying for God's peace to be on Mom, for her passing to be gentle and easy, for her not to be in pain, for her happiness. She was so worried that I would die before she did. I understand not wanting to watch someone you care about go through their final days here on earth. God's grace will get us all through. Dear, dear Mom.
We are officially on death watch now. Mom can't take any food because there is nowhere for it to go except back up. She drinks fluids, but barely tolerates those. This is agonizing. I FaceTime every day, and Mom always says she is not doing so good. I pray. She wants to go home to the Lord and be with Dad. All the kids are notified. It is time to let her go. We are sad but know it is right.
I feel as if part of me is dying with her. She has been a mainstay in my life and I have already missed her tremendously. I felt like I just reconnect with the FareTime option, and now time is running out. I remember when her mom, my gram, passed. It was such a deep and profound loss. I have a hard time imagining life without Mom there. I spend hours praying for God's peace to be on Mom, for her passing to be gentle and easy, for her not to be in pain, for her happiness. She was so worried that I would die before she did. I understand not wanting to watch someone you care about go through their final days here on earth. God's grace will get us all through. Dear, dear Mom.
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