Missed Appointment

My primary care provider has been on my case to have my annual ob/gyn check up. I made the appointment - and as usual they are booking months in advance. Who knew I was going to be struggling with other health issues? After all I have been through, I am just not up to keeping this appointment. I intend to cancel so they can give the appointment to someone else.

But I am so worn out dealing with feeling terrible that I haven't the energy to even make the call. I feel badly about it, but there is simply nothing I can do. I will probably be billed for the time. I just can't bring myself to even make another appointment. I need time to get back on my feet. Besides, if there were something to be concerned about, it would have shown up on my scans and somebody would have mentioned it.

So today I try not to think about what a horrible person I am and just cut myself some slack. Some seasons you are just overwhelmed trying to keep all the balls in the air and when they all fall down, it takes times and chutzpah to begin again. I am currently grounded for a bit and people will just have to understand. I'll get there. Eventually. Just not today.