Mega Napping

These days I retire at 9pm or so, and don't get up until almost 8am. Such unheard of goings on! I regress to my childhood. Except for the part about needing at least one morning nap and more like two afternoon naps and possibly one after supper. Egads.

It is difficult not to feel lazy under these circumstances. New England work ethic is so woven into my brain that I find myself apologizing for not being able to do what I would like to do and feeling a bit guilty at sitting around while the rest of the world is hard at work.

I do what I can. Yesterday I folded the clean laundry that Drew brought upstairs three shirts at a time, resting inbetween. It took me an entire morning to fold one basket, but I got it done! And then took a nap, completely worn out.

My friend Beth alleviated my inner turmoil when I spoke to her on the phone. "That's what you are supposed to be doing right now - resting so your body can fight the cancer and heal." I know that. I still feel like I am letting people down though.

Just keep looking ahead, I tell myself. This will come to an end and you will be able to take care of the tasks you need to. Yup. Think November. Treatment will be over in October, and by November, you will be picking up steam. That's not all that far away. Meanwhile, kick back and enjoy! How often do you have a valid excuse for daytime mega napping!