Midnight Moon

It had been a crazy closing. Just when you think you have everything under control, something new pops up. Back doors not locked when they should be, gate keys that won't turn (the locks are new), lights that go off inexplicably - I know this is a new building, but really!

We finally got everything secure, and I walked out the front doors and around the side of the library to the parking lot. My car still had the sun visors stuck in the window to keep the heat of the sun from roasting the steering wheel. No need for that in the middle of the night (OK, I know midnight is not really the middle of the night for most, but it's way past my normal bed time). I pulled the ovals from the windshield and tossed them into the back seat.

The sky was cloudless and bright from the moon's brilliance - a sort of surrealistic clarity highlighted the buildings and dorms. I sat for a moment in the driver's seat and enjoyed the scene. Dark trees silhouetted against cobalt sky. Students wandering about, talking and laughing. Music playing from some distant place.

I realized that the moon, though round and big, was not full. The lower edge was misshapen, waning away. Yet one would not know that from the amount of light it cast. It was still quite effective. That's the way I sometimes feel. After cancer, I am missing a lot of vitality I used to enjoy. I am no longer at my full zenith. But I'll be darned if that will keep me from functionality to the full extent that I am able to still perform. I may be missing stuff, but for the parts that remain, I am determined to function at 100% for as long as I am able.